My life seems to be one huge cinematic plot that reels kilometers of film each day. One film in particular struck a chord with me quite recently. Some may perceive this film to be cliche or prissy but if you pay attention to the lyrics of this solo- you’ll understand the meaning behind the film. This one song sums up the film in its entirety.

Cher has the power to captivate an audience because of her raw voice. She has this way of making people believe her words. You can feel pain in her voice, from experience in love and loss. She’s a worldly woman that has undeniably trudged through many hurdles to get to where she is today. Although she sings this solo in Burlesque’  I have a sneaky suspicion that this song encompasses her life. There is a sense of purity in her lyrics.

I’ve been brought

down to my knees

I’ve been pushed

Way past the point of breaking

but I can take it.

There’s so much truth in those lyrics- I for one take them more seriously. I’ve been brought down to knee’s and I’ve been pushed way past the point of breaking! At first I felt like an absolute Doris on my knee’s trying to keep my tears back (Although this is one task I’ll never succeed in). I look back now and realize that being on my knee’s forced me to surrender to something that was greater than me at the time. I’ll never have a moment of weakness like that again. It’s not to say that I don’t feel pain- because I do, but I overcame that mountain and I moved it. I didn’t intend for it to stand in my way for any longer. The lyrics are beautiful and for those that know me- I’m not one for using descriptive words such as ‘beautiful, stunning or exquisite.’ I’m not one for showing emotion yet I have an extreme amount of passion. Everything I do, I feel compelled to put in 100% and more. I put everyone before myself but I still admit to needing help sometimes too.

Age Is More Than A Number-

I feel that although I have literally been through hell and back I do not regret being put to the test. However I do feel that people take my independency for granted and mistake my maturity as naivety. I think one the greatest misconceptions people have of me is that although I may appear an adult- at the end of the day, I’m still merely ONLY 21. I don’t have the fortune of asking my parents for help. They’re not here. I don’t have the choice to study or work. I need to work to survive. I do not have the privilege to have a car (Yet!). I’m grateful for everyone who has helped me take one step closer to the summit but I don’t think anyone knows how much of a burden I know I am on their lives. They may not say it but I know it’s true. I’m not their responsibility- yet they still had compassion for me and my situation. There is no-one who feels more like the ‘Inconvenience’ than I do.

A man sooner or later discovers that he is the master-gardener of his soul, the director of his life.
James Allen

You Can Do It! So Can I!!


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